I don't know if I'm doing what's best for me or not right now. I've been disabled for almost 5 years now and I'm on RSDI. I have fibromyalgia, endometriosis, mitral valve prolapse, high blood pressure, chronic pancreatitis, ulcer, had gallbladder removed, etc etc.
So we moved back to my hometown and I met a great couple who has become our best friends and almost like family.
When we moved I did want to go back to work and part of me didn't. I was scared I would fail because of the pain I'm in all the time mainly from the fibromyalgia. So I've been really leery about it. But when we moved, everyone close to me was kind of pushing me to get a job, but not like in a mean way. They figured that's what I wanted and just wanted to support me. But they didn't realize the fear that I have of going back to work after being out of work and disabled for 5 years. So anyways, I got a part-time job at a pet store and it's not that bad. I started yesterday, but the pay is minimum wage. I came home last night from work and my legs hurt so damn bad I wanted to cut them off. This morning I was really sore. Because you do a lot of squatting, kneeling, bending, lifting. And that's rough on my fibro. So I guess they're a few pros to having this job, and a few con's to having this job. But like someone told me, this isn't a permanent thing. If it gets too bad on my health or anything I could always quit. Well I hate to have to do that because then I'd feel like I failed and let everyone down. So I don't know what to do. It's a tough choice. If anyone has any advice, it's greatly appreciated. Because I really don't know if this job will help me or hurt me more in the long run.